Happy Halloween!!
I spent the morning in the hospital getting a CAT scan!
I went to the hospital at 9am
This is suppose to be the end all, be all test for me!! I should have an answer on treatment on Nov 5th when I meet with my doctor!
The CAT Scan went well. The same nurse who put my IV in my arm last CAT Scan was there.
She remembered me.. which was nice! (FYI: I hate IVs)
I left the hospital and called my friend Todd
Todd is lives in Chicago -- he was just diagnosed with Lung Cancer
Todd was in the hospital as well today -- he will be starting Chemo.
Its odd how we met-- we met through cancer.
We both are at different parts of our treatments, but we have bonded quickly.
Of course, I still have Kevin! Kevin is a great comfort for me.
However, I have an odd sense of anxiety because I know that this test will show if my tumors have become larger, smaller or stayed the same.
Ironically, I have been fighting for this answer since August, but now that it is here (or I truely will find out on Nov 5th) Im kind of scared to find out.
If the CAT shows that all is well (and I am not sure how I will define well)... then the questions I will ask are as follows:
- why am I still in pain?
- What has all of this meant over the past few months?
- Where did the cancer go?
- Will it come back?
I feel that either way this test comes out... I might not be satisfied...
It is kind of an uncomfortable spot to be in!!
Nevertheless, it is Halloween!
I am on duty and it is raining badly here in Sacramento tonight.
Happy Halloween
Trick or Treat....
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